Again - or still - at a Crossroad

As came to me through email today, authorship unknown:

Definition of FAITH: Fabulous Adventure In Trusting Him!

It is indeed fabulous. A period discovery, of wonderment and awe, of self-realization and self-actuation.

An adventure, to say the least. Unlike any other in my life experiences.

In - could mean any number of things:
- INcluding
-INvolving
-Interdependent (on)

Trusting - an active and concious effort(note the verb tense)

Him - as in only one could have this ability and impact, and warrant this obedience


As OMG (Only My God) can do, he has shown me that my current state of humanness - personal and professional is second to my current state of spirituality. Trying not to be simply dumbstruck by the magnitude and frozen in place awaiting "orders", instead I coninue to experience life as a concert of my attempts to do what I think I should be doing, and His clear intent to have me do what He wants me to do.

And , I suspect that when my humanness gets too much effort & focus, such that I allow fear, doubt, frustration, anger, and other inappropriate elements associated with simply "not knowing" (the future) take root, then He sends me a sign letting me know He's present, and that there are others I need to connect and share with - who are in as equally a revolutionary timeframe as I.

For in this period of instability, there is this amazing transition going on, one which replaces that fear of not having control over the future with a clear and calm faith that something will occur which will absolutely all for provision. To not feel anxieties is unnatural; to feel them, but replace them with faith and calm seems oh so appropriate and natural.

Beyond my spiritual journey is my family commitment and my personal & professional life, all of which continue to be a state of transition as well. Family itself is stable - its me that's changing in and around them. Personal life is stable, but always morphing, with new commitments replacing ones just honored. Professional life is absolutely upside down and unknown right now - but I am surprisingly at peace with that as I regroup and restrategize for whatever is next.

And I am indeed at a Crossroads