O M G !!!

My last posting so many moons ago was all about faith and trust, and not living in fear & stress. Well, I am here to say that I am living proof, that at least for a while, I have been pretty successful in that mode. And that is with a whirlwind of life circumstances changing all around me.

But I am very much at peace inside - at least I think I am - at least, I've convinced myself that I am - living in the blissful ignorance of not knowing what today or tomorrow will bring. More than that, I am living almost seemingly without a care about the future, trusting that God has a plan, and it will reveal itself when He says, not when I say. And that He will will reveal the details of the plan to me, rather than I direct them. I am merely following His desire for my trust & faith to be in Him.

So there you have it - I am in with Only My God - OMG. Not "Oh" - for that communicates surprise. But with "Only", for I believe I have learned the path to inner peace begins and ends with this Trust & Faith, at least to such an extent that I am comfortable with no longer being in the driver's seat, taking the lead, determining the strategies, communicating the tactics, and managing the project to the vision.

Instead, I am listening and watching. And seemingly learning, experiencing, realizing, and "living" like never before, at least not with a focus on this most unique principle. For with this commitment to Trust & Faith, I have been exposed to - no, blessed by - an array of messages, consistent on multiple themes, repeatedly showing themselves to me through sight and sound. And I am now starting to FEEL these messages. And with that comes an element of awe - which has its own set of interesting repercussions - including fighting the natural tendency towards dis-belief.

So these themes that seem to be coming at me consistently and with more than amazing coincidence:

- I am stronger because of the challenges, adversities, and pains which I am experienced in my lifetimes. And I get stronger each day by overcoming them with the "proper" purpose and intentions - which are NOT self-serving in any way. Only My God tells me that we, as humans, are meant to endure suffering; we should not be always acting in a preventative mode. We must learn to accept this "fate", because it is the reality of the human existence, and focus more on recovery, rebuilding, and strengthening through it, and not focus on the mentality of entitlement, steeped in "bad luck" and self-pity (why me?").

- Ask (pray) for what I really want - and be specific. In my case, this is one formidable challenge. To pray that specifically seems to be like setting my expectation; in order to set my expectation, I try not to be prideful and self-serving in that request, and instead find it easier to seek solutions for others. Only My God wants me to request exactly what I want or need, and overcome the challenges of being selfish, extravagant, a dreamer, and practical. Only My God further challenges me to be focused on the present, and not on the future, and therefore likely to be focused on an immediate set of circumstances, and not the big - or right - picture.

- There is indeed an evil presence. Call him Satan, the Devil, the Other, or whatever - but while I believe I am walking more strongly in His light these days, there is most definitely a sinister, alternative reality. Not to be overly dramatic, but the temptations of life which are in whatever ways "wrong" seem almost spotlighted and magnetic these days. As I' m told there most definitely is a Lucifer, the devil has me now thinking and acting about vices which I thought I either put away for good or had completely under control. So if "sin" is a reality that comes with a commitment to Faith & Trust, I am more aware of these daily challenges than ever before. And I now have something specific to pray about and ask Only My God about every day - giving me strength to avoid if possible, or repent whenever I stray from the path.

- Repentance can come in a variety of forms. For certain, the simple self-awareness of the need to repent is a critical foundation to any form. One form that seems to be presenting itself with frequency are the opportunities to be "in service". To be in service, for me, means completely giving of my time, knowledge, talents, abilities, for the good of someone or something. Only My God wants me to find comfort and joy contributing to the welfare of others; the challenge is to not be in service and focused on "me" and what I'm getting out of it, but instead have Faith and Trust that God has me there for a reason, and the rewards will be evident to me when He says they will, and Only My God decides what lessons and benefits I take from the experience of being of service.

So, with time on my hands, I am now in service, contributing in a number of ways which are new and different, challenging, and not at all about me. I hope this blog today is the start of a vehicle from which to share my experiences of life going forward, and definitely about the service opportunities which I realize.

Today is but the next day in this journey, yet it does feel somewhat of a new start for me. I just find myself uniquely lucid and "in touch" with myself in new ways, and today's blog is a solid and positive journaling reality for me.

Only My God could take me to where I am at this moment.....